January 10, 2005

• Try This:
  
  Write fifteen statements intended towards fifteen different people, but never tell them it was about them, or would never say it to their face, or something you wish you would have said, but didn't.  (These are in no particular order)
  
  
  

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  1.  There was a time in my life where I felt that you were the only one in it.  You gave me my first kiss (on the cheek) and since then we've been friends with always this hint of romance underneath.  When we finally kissed last year....I mean really kissed.....it was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders......I'm glad we're still friends even though we don't see each other often and I will always get a smile when I think about the day we met.
  

  
  

  2.  You are one of the most amazing, funny, caring, & honest people I've ever met.  This past year being away from my parents was tough but being around you made things easier.  I feel like I've been able to introduce you to so many new things but on that same note you've taught me so much.  I hope we stay friends until we're old and grey.

  
  

  3.  I'm sad I never got a chance to say "I Love You," before you were taken away from me.

  
  

  4.  You were my first in so many different ways.  The time we had together I will remember for the rest of my life.  There will always be a place in my heart for you in some way or form.  I hope you realize that.  Also, I'm sorry that I broke it off so abruptly in the end and that I hurt you.

  
  

  5.  I'm getting to know you better every day.  What I'm learning is both amazing and scary at the same time.  I see myself falling for you but I want to be careful because of your past.  I've been hurt to many times to rush into things and I'm happy with the way things are.  You should know I love spending time with you and that I care about you dearly.

  
  

  6.  You called yourself my friend but you constantly fucked me over.  I remember when you used to make fun of me and I think it was because to make yourself feel better.  I just wanted to say thank you for being an ass and making me a stronger person.

  
  

  7.  There was a time I called you my Best Friend.  We both made some serious fuck ups when it came to our friendship (me more than you probably) and I fear we won't be able to ever go back to the way things were.

  
  

  8.  You have nice legs and you're a great kisser.  Hahahh hope we can do it again some day.

  
  

  9.  I can't believe you are such a coward!!!  That day we spent on the rock pier out on the beach was the most amazing days of my life. [period]  To throw it all away because your parents didn't want you dating is such a cop out.  You should've stood up for what you cared about.....I'm beginning to think that you never cared at all though.

  
  

  10.  There was a time in my life where I thought we would get married someday.  There is a small part of me that still does think that.  I felt like you were my equal in every way.  We were attached at the knee but we never had a chance to explore our feelings at risk of losing our friendship.  Sometimes I wish I would've acted sooner or that we liked each other at the same time....

  
  

  11.  Its funny you are at the same time one of my fondest memories and most hated memories.  Our first time meeting and first "date" were amazing and one of the most enjoyable nights of my life.  Fast forward a couple of months after that first night and then I found out you had a boyfriend.  I felt so cheated, fuck you.

  
  

  12.  You've gone through so much the past couple of years yet you seem to have come out ok.  I hope you learn to truly enjoy your life again and that you realize it's ok to live your own life.  I wish we had more chances to hang out and I hope you realize that I consider you one of my greatest friends right now.

  
  

  13.  People ask me why we ever dated but there is always a part of me that remembers how we started.  Those feelings that were so strong when we first met were amazing.....I'm guessing some things are meant to fade with time though.

  
  

  14.  I have a small crush on you.  People call you a bitch but I haven't seen that side of you and I like to make my opinion.  Hopefully we'll get to know each other better in the future. 

  
  

  15.  I remember lying in my bed crying from the pain.  I remember those long green reeds you used to leave scars on my small back.  I realize now that it was the way things were always done in our culture....but I know I'll be different.  Now that I'm older I realize you did it partly out of frustration.  You haven't hit me in over 10 years and I know for you it had to be done.  It's because I've finally realized that you really do care about me greatly.  Your hits have turned into hugs and your screams into I love you's.......thank you for being my greatest role model.
  
  

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